Tuesday, January 16, 2007
"Whats the purpose of my life?"
that rang through my head today.. i don't see how important i am to other people.
"This world is filled with too many redundant people"
was what i thought next. Its filled with people we can do without.
How purposeful is it for me to grow up, finish my studies, work and then die? Is it really all that important to go though the joys and sorrows of life? And when i die, where do these feelings go to? Is my memoir a presentation to someone up there? If so, does it benefit them? If life is a lesson, what purpose does my learning do after i die? At least one of hide's purpose in life was to give hope to those who had none. And what can i do for mankind? what can bank tellers do? what can office clerks do? Our influence are on such a small scale its insignificant.
Life is like a one time game. You can't save the data and resumed. And each time, we can only start afresh with no prior knowledge. If life is truly a lesson, are the gods drilling it into our head? Just like how TYS questions do.
Somehow it feels like i'm living for the mere sake of living. Has there been anyone who had been proven irreplacable? Is there anyone who could REALLY change mankind and not just make history like Adolf Hitler?
We're playing a game..
as the pawns.
the results of absolute boredom.