Wednesday, August 23, 2006
i've got a 2 days MC!
yayy!
but i'm still going to school.
DARN..
while at home i've been thinking.
about how my JC life had been so far..
J1 first intake was awesome, the people i know from 1s10,
they're totally cool.
Then now my current class,
its a mixed combi with people taking chinese at A levels.
i thought i couldn't fit in at first,
you know.. like how i'm a yellow banana.
But i've found 2 wonderful pals.
i thought i was the happiest person in the world at that time,
being stress-free, having the greatest people with me, no worries or whatsoever.
i guess that complacency changed me.
when things don't go my way, i turned paranoid.
i tried to mend things when it went wrong but instead it led to misunderstandings.
misunderstandings so ridiculous that i couldn't believe it until it hit me hard when it came out of the horses mouths.
we got that sorted out.
i was happy again,
and i love them more.
tell me why then, why do i still feel so lonely?
i need someone who i can lean on,
is there anyone like that out there?
i hate life now.
i hate A levels,
i hate the stress,
i hate being an anti social,
i hate myself.